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Well, I'm not saying it's a fic I'd want to write, just that it's one I can imagine writing! And I earnestly hope that if there is mutual resentment they will get past it and finally, finally discover that they can either be in the same life by choice or work out a way to be in different lives but also together and close, with no one trapped. And I could definitely do with a Winchester reunion without lying.

But, well. I think there is often some sense of relief and even sort of adventure that comes with some kinds of loss and grief, and that doesn't get talked about much because it sounds like such a devastatingly awful thing to acknowledge and like it would be negating the reality of love and mourning. And for someone like Sam, who's always had a need to go off on his own in conflict with very deep bonds, and who tends to dissociate and compartmentalize like crazy and has a kind of robustly fatalistic pragmatism, it could be very plausible for me. I doubt they'll write it or play it that way, but at least it gives me an available Sam's psychology headcanon.

*clings back*