I wasn't accepted at the college of my dreams, or rather my parents' dreams, feeling as if I disappointed my entire family. I have no goal in life. Why do I even exist, just wasting resources and wasting away.

You're complaining about the fact that you didn't get accepted to some top tier Ivy? Do you know how many people would kill to go to any sort of college?

I mean, sorry that things are so hard for you, but have some perspective. And wallowing isn't going to solve any of your problems.