Thank you for your helful answer, anon! You are right of course and I know that it shouldn't be an issue, but I'm still feeling quite hesistant about it, can't help it. I think I'll go for it later. I like my therapist well enough (or I would have went somewhere else, obviously), but I really want to gain more secure ground first. The main reason I want to talk about it is that fic is something that helps me explore kink and sexuality and that is something I do want to talk about more, sooner or later. And yes, I still feel weird when I talk vaguely about ~friends~ and it's people whose lj I've read for some years. (I feel it's hard to explain that I can actually get more out of that than from some rl relations...).